LA film school audition

So... Had an audition today at the LA film school. It was my first time going there. I mean you always hear it tossed around a lot, but this thing is huge! The nice parking man let me park in the structure for free. Parking is always a THING for auditions. That's why you have to get there early because the worst is hastily parking... running in out of breath, trying to find the room and sweating as you slate haha. It wasn't like that today. I auditioned for a short film role. I totally misinterpreted the script... because I played it a lot more sarcastic and harsh.... then I was directed that she is a people pleaser and kind, sweet. Well, that changed the whole read. "Very good" they said and told me emails would go out tomorrow for callbacks.

They seemed genuine instead of polite, which is a good sign, but you never know... I wonder if two reads for an audition is a good sign.. as opposed to three or one. Enough of the mind games, I'll drive myself crazy!! Anyway, the director is also the writer, which is the hardest thing to audition for because the script is their baby and they are looking for perfection to fit the original vision. I've only worked with one director who was also the writer and it wasn't a great experience, but people are different and I always choose to stay open minded and positive. Excited to see whats next. I have a callback tomorrow for another short film. I'll let you know how that goes :)

The ball finally feels like it is Rolling!!!!

Hello friends! Sorry, I haven't written in a while and I know its a lame excuse, but I just needed a break. I felt like I was saying the same things over an over again and I got tired of writing it, so I needed to step back. That's the cool thing about acting. You can take breaks when you need to. Anyway, I did a dinner theatre show that was halloween themed and terrible because I was tired and the audience was overly obnoxious. I'm sure everyone had a great time. I was simply itching to sleep in my bed.

That's the other thing, I am so tired, but it's a very good tired. I went in for an audition for a short film a few days ago and it was so refreshing. The ladies were nice and interacted with me and allowed me to play off them in the read, which was fun. The audition was a CAZT, which I really like actually. It's a great audition space. Anyway, I came in memorized of course, did the read, they gave me a direction, I adjusted and that was that. It was fun!!! I LOVE auditioning... like a weirdo haha. Anyway, yesterday I got the email that I am called back. I have to memorize a new script, but I'm excited to go in and do well. It just reminded me how ready I am to act, to work, how capable I am of this. It was so natural for me. And it was a huge encouragement after two years of feeling so lame and untalented, you know? I always knew that wasn't true, but you do start to doubt when things aren't going according to plan. and I STILL don't have an agent. However, I feel it's only a matter of time!!!! YAY!

And then I got three other auditions this next week. So it will be busy, and lots of memorizing, but all good. I am just so grateful and glowing and happy. I am beginning to see the hope of the future and it so resonates in my soul that only divine intervention could stop me now!

Oh, and I met with a friend who's been here a while and he has hit a huge success point, which is so encouraging! I was incredibly happy for him. And I met a fellow actress who moved from Austin, who was a friend of a friend and now I have a new friend :) All these beautiful things are happening in my life. Ah! God is good... actually He was good all along, even though in my humanity I couldn't see it.

We will See

I finished the final class of Killian's Workshop Foundation Class on Thursday. I know I'm not suppossed to talk about it, but I will say this: BEST MONEY I"VE SPENT on a class in Hollywood. It was a great finale. I am also excited to continue working with him in other programs that he offers. Thank God for Killian! He helps you focus and really pursue your dreams. He gave quite an inspiring speech... one of those speeches that basically will play in my mind over an over again. I thought to myself: THIS is the beginning of a beautiful adventure in my career and I can't wait to continue. Just keep going, keep trying. I think that is the key.

Did my dinner theatre Saturday night, I got to be the killer muahahahahaa!!! I actually made some great friends at my table. It is always rewarding to hear people say they had such a great time and they laughed a lot. Listen. Life is hard! If I can help people actually enjoy life, I think that is a very noble cause. Making people laugh and be happy is far more important than I ever realized before. I think that's becoming more apparent as I grow older. It's so important to be happy and grateful. Whenever I am throwing a mini tantrum or pity party, I like to think of people who cant walk or see or who have major medical hindrances and I think, "life is good." The best part is it actually works. We weren't meant to live life as loners, so when I can help or encourage people I like to do so, because it somehow encourages me...

Today, I sent out my application for an internship at Fox Television. It is just an opportunity to learn and see if I have other passions and skills that I can develop. As you have noticed, I do so love to write and if I can do that in some capacity to make a living, I think I'd be a happy camper. But I'll never know until I try. I've already graduated and they only accept students, but there's no harm in trying. We will see.... as always in this city, "we will see...."

Mingling

I went to the UCB Diversity interview at the scheduled time, headshot in hand. I have always been really good at interviews. I come off very confident and I'm really fantastic at coming up with things fast in the moment even if I'm faking it, which they usually can't tell anyway. The guys were all very nice and I feel I did the best I could. They just have to decide if I am "diverse" enough for them or not.We'll see, I'll keep you posted. I personally was stoked to even make it to the interviews, so that was cool for me.

I'm working on this vision board in this study I am in, figuring out what my main focus for this next year will be and really building a vision and a dream, it's fun! I'm really into those kind of things. One of my friends came up with the system and she is writing a book... thank God! ...because it's a brilliant system, unlike anything I've seen before.

Last night I went to Tim Storey's study and it was incredible! He is such an inspiration! And you can see that he is genuine in his love for people. He knows how to communicate with industry people because he has been around them for so long. He has stood by a lot of Hollywood people so his stories are intriguing. He spoke about keeping your head up and moving on, about having faith and that perspective will help you book, even though you can't see it now and it doesn't make sense. He encourages me to be a generous person. I want to be more generous if I can. E. G. Daily was there (voice of Tommy Pickles, the Voice) and she sang a very beautiful song. It was encouraging to hear her story and how she got into singing. Afterwards, we got to talk with a lot of industry people who are doing so many different things. It really widens one's perspective on the various types of work there are in the city! I went with a friend, so that was fun, as life usually is better with friends haha.