Beginnings with an agent!

I met with my agent to show him all of the new pictures I took with the photographer and he liked a LOT of them. It took him a good while to sort through the final choices. He picked 19 of the 130 I brought in and those were out of over 1000 pictures I took featuring 12 different looks. Definitely a process finding the right shots. Anyways, now I have to do touchups before I can put them online for submissions and touchups cost even more money!!! Ah!!!! everything is so expensive! And I'm only a waitress, there's no sugar daddy over here coughing up money to help me out :( jkjk. I am so grateful. I just happen to be brooding over ways to make more money/ reduce my spending. But, I am so HAPPY.

Having an agent is like having a personal tutor for a class. He gives me "homework" to do every time I leave, but this homework is like the funnest, most exciting homework ever!!! I know that its new and the new jitters may wear off over time, but right now I am celebrating. Getting an agent is one of my big goals for myself, something at one point, I thought would be impossible... and yet, here I am! Ah!!! It's real. Of course now, I actually have to book things. But I'm excited for auditions; I'm excited for a challenge; I'm excited to have someone on my team and I'm ever so stoked to be living this actress lifestyle. It is totally up my alley. It's a life that I could love and enjoy; it's a life of adventure and often never the same adventure twice... so I decided I don't care how much money it takes! I am worth it! Living passionately and vitally is worth it!!!! And so is being happy! The longer I live, the more I discover how truly rare happiness can be, so I am grateful and clinging to these early "starving actress" days! I was driving back from the agency and I started to tear up thinking of the possibilities. My hope and joy have been restored! Sheesh, I'm such an emotional being... but this is the one career where that actually works to my advantage! yay!

My next assignment after paying for touch-ups and putting them on the appropriate sites is to fine tune my resume and be SAG eligible. Another mountain. But, like my agent told me, "It's gonna be a battle, but we can do it!" I love that attitude and I'm so ready to get my boxing gloves on!