A good night!

Tonight was perfect! Tonight, I loved my life... If all my life could look like tonight, I could never ask for anything more! Well, maybe not the same night, but different variations of the same night... oh, never mind haha. Anyway, I think part of it has to do with the fact that I curled my hair and I looked great and when you are confident about how you look, it shows in the way you walk, talk, ect. I'm pretty sure they've done studies on that, like it's a real thing. So, I've decided to make a genuine effort to look my best all the time. I know this will require additional effort, but I'm going to try it and see if it works, see if there are any improvements to my acting career or otherwise. I'll keep you posted. Anyway, I went to Killian's class. I'm obsessed, I love it! And the people there are great; we're building a real camaraderie, which is fun. I'm always sad to see good things come to an end, but welcome to the rest of life. We have our final class next week.

Then, the usual UCB show. Woo hoo! We saw convoy/last day of school. They're all good. Always. So you can just sit back and laugh. Oh, I was selected as one of the interviewees for the diversity scholarship at UCB (which I wouldn't have known about it except my whole friend group applied. I'm lucky I have smart friends or I'd never get anywhere!!). I may or may not get it, but I'm grateful to get this far. They actually liked my four paged single spaced narrative. Which reminds me of the script I'm writing. I write all kinds of other stuff...it's about time. I enjoy writing, I think it's fun, so it's a great hobby even if it never leads anywhere. You won't know ANYTHING about the screenplay until you see it in the movie theatres years from now. I know you're a skeptic, but we'll make a believer out of you yet! Also, working on landing an internship with fox news, I contacted a friend in new york who works for fox news out there to get whatever inside scoop there is to get. I have cool friends.

I don't know, I suppose I imagine all of us walking out of a comedy show with a bunch of other attractive, driven, artistic young people, laughter at the chic bars nearby and the hipsters with cigarettes and it just feels right, like what I imagined all raveled up in a moment. LA life. This is what I want. Now, just to move to the city and be here all the time. UGH. Paying those student loans!!! I want to be debt free by the time I'm 30 and even though that feels like it is consuming my life at the moment, I think I'll be grateful I made this financial decision. It's hard when you want to splurge on acting classes though.... and go shopping, ugh, the weights of being a girl hehe. Follow your dream!!!! It totally sucks at the beginning, but if you wait it out two years, there is finally some sort of payoff. and you probably are more resourceful and wont have to wait as long for a break. I'm not very good at functioning without a specific structure. I'm learning, but still an amateur. And life just takes time to build. As much as we don't like that in this culture, it's the reality, so love the journey... I remind myself that as often as possible, but often my emotions get the best of me. However, I decided that's okay. I'm being nicer to myself and myself likes me for it. You know what I mean! Cheers! (As a random man said that to me once... and he wasn't even British)